Something gotta change

 No one else will chase your dream if you won't. And it can run away. Something gotta change! We compromise to much in our lives, like it's something we don't care for at all. Or maybe at least I do?

 I keep forgetting that it's New Year so soon! New hopes, plans, things to do, goals to reach. Dear 2012, be good to me. And I promise to be good to myself and to people I care the most. 

  I realized today that my priorities mixed up and things that shouldn't bother me that much took almst all my attention, time, emotions. Idea for New Year's resolution: care only for what's worth it.

Back to reality

 

Reality lost colourfull lights, it's after Christmas already. I like Christmas magic, I like being seduced by its charm but I prefer colours of everyday routine. Mug of black/green/white/red tea. Black or white coffee. Grey or blue sky. Yellow and red busses. 

Wallet from Singapore

 Countless stories are passing you by on the streets, in shops, parks, etc. I like the moment of discovering small secrets of strangers. Today there was a young woman in the shop, buying some necklace. She had really nice wallet. I told her that and she said it's from Singapore. She bought it to spent last foreign money there. From where she had idea to do to Singapore? She said it was relly nice place, she recomends it. And why our life paths crossed for this short moment today? She will stay in my artist's selective memory and here, virtually. And you will read this and now she may stay in your heads too. Dear girl with a wallet from Singapore- it was a pleasure to meet you today.

Gordian knot

 Sometimes my thoughts turn into ball of threads. It may take some time to untangle them, make the mind area clear. Sometimes it's better just to cut it, to loose all the threads, to start again. I'm waiting for tomorrow, for a free day to open my mind and look inside. To select good things from rubbish, to let fresh air in, to find what I've  forgotten about. During week mind is just a box where I keep everything.

Shook me all night long

I forgot about AC Dc and their song "Shook me all night long". Their music is so energetic and made me wonder what can shook me all night long? What can make me stay awake, feeling the thrill (maybe on Blueberry Hill, like Louis Armstrong? :)), not wanting to sleep...? Good conversation. Good old friends. Dancing. Do you remember nights in front of campfire when no one wanted to go sleep? That magic in the air and the impression of something extraordinary. Ahhh, the feeling when you're on the right way! On a "Highway to hell"! Or another... When you are so full of energy, when you're under a "High voltage" and you want to make milion things at once, when your body is ready, mind is clear and your heart is brave. Do moments like that come or I can induce them? How?

Go green.

 Oh, yes, ecology is important but this time it's not about segregation of garbage. Green suppose to calm down and I could really use more calmness now. When I'm forgeting which day it is or mixing first letters of two words, it's a sign that I need a break, a deep breath or two. So let's go green, let's be good for the Planet and ourselves :)

Living in a different reality

First snow this year. Disappeard faster than fell to the ground. 

Bus is an invaluable observation point. Today I found out while talking with a friend, that there's someting that you can call 'bus savoir-vivre' or maybe rather...'bus survival'. Which place to choose so you won't have to give it to older person? When you should give place to someone? Is this person old enough not to feel resentful? Etc. 

I'm living in a different reality lately. My inner callendar is not adequate to the real one. Christmas disappeared from it. One day is like the day before and the next day. Days are almost the same, passing like autumn leaves. Or passing like first snow.

Standing in the middle

No matter which position you'd like to choose in your life...you will be always right in the middle of it. Sometimes you might want to hide, to run away, to disappear... That will never happen. You might think that you have supporting role in a play called "My life" but you are better actor than you think- you're fooling everyone around and yourself. You are the main character in this play/movie/story, naked with your emotions. What will be your next step?

So deep is the night...

 But night is giving us also deep sleep. When body is switching off the lights, mind keeps working in the dark. Or maybe that's the moment when it has the most light? All those prophetic or deep psychological dreams...are coming from our complicated machinery- brain. "Sleep of reason produces monsters". Sleep of body produces ideas. And...energy. It's amazing how body can regenerate while sleeping. And then we wake up in the morning, ready to live another day.  

Pink Diva

 In the morning I was watching some of National Geographic programmes and it made me think that people and animals (or animals and people...) have so much in common! Gestures, face expression, being sociable or solitary, maternal instinct, etc. 

 I remember some classes, when lecturer asked us about an animal with which we identify- the animal in us. I chose dragonfly. Why? Maybe it'll be a topic for another post. But now I feel more like chameleon. I'm in a new enviroment where I have to wear pink blouse as my uniform. And even if I didn't wear pink before, I adapted to this colour quite fast. And to the rules, conditions, expectations. What's more, it gives me... sort of happiness! And now I wonder- if it's good to chameleon? Maybe instead of adapting to the conditions I should adapt the conditions to myself?

A day before December

 It's a day before December. I'm thinking about something transitory, something hard to catch and describe. Like a moment when one month turns into another, when one year turns into another. Time. Would time exist if mankind did not invent its terms, clocks, calendars, etc.? Minutes, hours, months are artificial division. And we can't touch them, catch them, save them for later. Does people from other place in the world have more time than us? Does everyone have the same amount of it? We have clocks to show us the time but what if everyone would have it own hour? Who would be right then? Time... More complicated thing than I thought! 

 

Working space

I'm working on having working space now. A room is not complete with only bed and few boxes with my things. I need something more... Another great invention of humanity- a desk and a chair. Power of simplicity!
Look, how many things I can do having them:
# draw!
# write letters
# work on my computer
# make plans and to do lists
# chair is the best clothes hanger
# do nothing, just sit and drink tea/coffee/... and wait for inspirations
# cut out photos from magazines and then glue them into one of my notebooks
# .....

Before the Christmas rush

 I feel the Christmas pressure already on my back. List of people who I want to give presents is growing. Ideas for perfect gifts disappeared (why, o why I didn't write them down?!). Will I wake up one day and decide that I actually hate Christmas becouse of this madness? Well, this year I'm close to do that.

 My friend posted interesting appeal on her fb wall: to support small art galleries, shops, artists or friends that create something nice, becouse the money they'll earn, will go directly to their hands, for their needs. Not to big companies, that pay the lowest salaries to their workers and look for the cheapest labor force. Worth considering! It made me rearrange my shopping lists and plans. Imagine how positively world would change, if we'd choose to support people and their work, not corporations and their business plans. 

A girl with dragonfly necklace

Do you think we have cocoons? Like butterflies have? That we transform, change into new us? Do you get from time to time the feeling of discomfort in your own body, with your own thoughts, with yourself in general?

I get that feeling. And for a while I feel uncomfortable with myself. But then the new perspectives open. Some walls are breaking in me, I discover new spaces, feelings, new me. Maybe butterflies transform only once but human beings transform all their lives?

I'm getting old, you know? Becouse I look at little girls from primary school and I think: I was like them long time ago! How many years, problems, joys and toys ago it was! And how crazy ways of life are to bring me where I'm now.

Flowers in your hair

Wear a flower in your hair from time to time. Why? To colour up everyday routine. To be less serious and more feminine. To surprise. To do something differently. 

I found nice book lately in a book store which is a cafe at the same time. It was about fashion and about doing it by yourself. My favorite idea was to make a dress from round tablecloth. I have to try that! Extremely simple and looking nice. It made me think about how seldom we do something by ourselves. It's much easier to buy it but it is not that much fun. And where's the individuality there? I'm a big fan of Do It Yourself. DIY rules! :))

A little bit more courage

Everyone could use a little bit more courage. Maybe I gave my fears too much space? They took place of dreams and hopes. Fear = something that usually doesn't happen. Dream = something that I can make to happen. Time to rearrange what's inside my head. Sorry fears, I need more space, I'm sweeping you away. You are not that powerfull as I thought you are. You are just my own thoughts, not the reality. 

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5 good things, 5 bad things

I was talking with my sister today about positive thinking. Is it good to see only bright sides? It's so far from reality! We also noticed that we're less 'positive' than few years ago. Growing old? Living in bigger cities, being more stressed? 

We decided to accept the both sides of life and to list five good and bad things that happened to us last week. We didn't have much problems with the good ones. The bad ones took us some more time. Conclusions? Maybe humanity has the element of optimism from birth?

Honey, honey

Oh yes, life can be hard. We can have problems everywhere, with everything. And the biggest problems are in our heads. The biggest tragedies happens there. The worst scenarios. Life usually isn't that scary as we see it with the eyes of our imagination. Life doesn't care that much for us like we care for life. It just passes by. And what's left for us, poor little beetles? Only to sweeten our lives with good thoughts, good people, good books, movies and good food. And good memories! Let's work from today to have them for later.

Femininity

Is it enough to be born as a woman to emanate femininity? Is  femininity made of ribbons, lace, fripperies, high heels, etc.? I'm full of respect for women from beginning of XX century- their attire was so meticulous and definetely time-consuming. But wait...nowadays women also spend hours on shopping, dressing up, putting make up and body care. The same in ancient Egypt, Middle Ages... Humanity didn't change that much over the centuries! 

Red dress

 

Once I've seen it, I can't get it out of my head. Red dress. Little red dress. It was hanging flippantly, catching my attention. Forced me to forget about bills to pay, monthly card, other important expenses. Now only that red dress matters! I'm already matching it with my jewelry, shoes... Imagination is working hard :) Some women are crazy about shoes and have tens, hundreds of new pairs. I'd like to have 100 dresse. At least 100! For every occasion, every season, every mood. In every colour, lenght and style. For each day :)    

Autumn leaves

 I love the smell and the sound of autumn leaves. Each year I wait impatiently for trees to become yellow, for Autumn to become gold. Who needs red carpet, when you can step on a yellow?

 I love when they're falling from the sky, like dry yellow rain. Autumn is somewhere between 'too hot' and 'too cold'. Between long days and long nights. Between Summer and Winter.