Thursday, December 29, 2011

Something gotta change

 No one else will chase your dream if you won't. And it can run away. Something gotta change! We compromise to much in our lives, like it's something we don't care for at all. Or maybe at least I do?
 I keep forgetting that it's New Year so soon! New hopes, plans, things to do, goals to reach. Dear 2012, be good to me. And I promise to be good to myself and to people I care the most. 
  I realized today that my priorities mixed up and things that shouldn't bother me that much took almst all my attention, time, emotions. Idea for New Year's resolution: care only for what's worth it.

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Back to reality

Reality lost colourfull lights, it's after Christmas already. I like Christmas magic, I like being seduced by its charm but I prefer colours of everyday routine. Mug of black/green/white/red tea. Black or white coffee. Grey or blue sky. Yellow and red busses. 

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Wallet from Singapore


 Countless stories are passing you by on the streets, in shops, parks, etc. I like the moment of discovering small secrets of strangers. Today there was a young woman in the shop, buying some necklace. She had really nice wallet. I told her that and she said it's from Singapore. She bought it to spent last foreign money there. From where she had idea to do to Singapore? She said it was relly nice place, she recomends it. And why our life paths crossed for this short moment today? She will stay in my artist's selective memory and here, virtually. And you will read this and now she may stay in your heads too. Dear girl with a wallet from Singapore- it was a pleasure to meet you today.

Saturday, December 17, 2011

Gordian knot


 Sometimes my thoughts turn into ball of threads. It may take some time to untangle them, make the mind area clear. Sometimes it's better just to cut it, to loose all the threads, to start again. I'm waiting for tomorrow, for a free day to open my mind and look inside. To select good things from rubbish, to let fresh air in, to find what I've  forgotten about. During week mind is just a box where I keep everything.

Thursday, December 15, 2011

Shook me all night long



I forgot about AC Dc and their song "Shook me all night long". Their music is so energetic and made me wonder what can shook me all night long? What can make me stay awake, feeling the thrill (maybe on Blueberry Hill, like Louis Armstrong? :)), not wanting to sleep...? Good conversation. Good old friends. Dancing. Do you remember nights in front of campfire when no one wanted to go sleep? That magic in the air and the impression of something extraordinary. Ahhh, the feeling when you're on the right way! On a "Highway to hell"! Or another... When you are so full of energy, when you're under a "High voltage" and you want to make milion things at once, when your body is ready, mind is clear and your heart is brave. Do moments like that come or I can induce them? How?

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Go green.


 Oh, yes, ecology is important but this time it's not about segregation of garbage. Green suppose to calm down and I could really use more calmness now. When I'm forgeting which day it is or mixing first letters of two words, it's a sign that I need a break, a deep breath or two. So let's go green, let's be good for the Planet and ourselves :)

Saturday, December 10, 2011

Living in a different reality


First snow this year. Disappeard faster than fell to the ground. 

Bus is an invaluable observation point. Today I found out while talking with a friend, that there's someting that you can call 'bus savoir-vivre' or maybe rather...'bus survival'. Which place to choose so you won't have to give it to older person? When you should give place to someone? Is this person old enough not to feel resentful? Etc. 
I'm living in a different reality lately. My inner callendar is not adequate to the real one. Christmas disappeared from it. One day is like the day before and the next day. Days are almost the same, passing like autumn leaves. Or passing like first snow.

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Standing in the middle

No matter which position you'd like to choose in your life...you will be always right in the middle of it. Sometimes you might want to hide, to run away, to disappear... That will never happen. You might think that you have supporting role in a play called "My life" but you are better actor than you think- you're fooling everyone around and yourself. You are the main character in this play/movie/story, naked with your emotions. What will be your next step?

So deep is the night...


 But night is giving us also deep sleep. When body is switching off the lights, mind keeps working in the dark. Or maybe that's the moment when it has the most light? All those prophetic or deep psychological dreams...are coming from our complicated machinery- brain. "Sleep of reason produces monsters". Sleep of body produces ideas. And...energy. It's amazing how body can regenerate while sleeping. And then we wake up in the morning, ready to live another day.  

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Pink Diva

 In the morning I was watching some of National Geographic programmes and it made me think that people and animals (or animals and people...) have so much in common! Gestures, face expression, being sociable or solitary, maternal instinct, etc. 

 I remember some classes, when lecturer asked us about an animal with which we identify- the animal in us. I chose dragonfly. Why? Maybe it'll be a topic for another post. But now I feel more like chameleon. I'm in a new enviroment where I have to wear pink blouse as my uniform. And even if I didn't wear pink before, I adapted to this colour quite fast. And to the rules, conditions, expectations. What's more, it gives me... sort of happiness! And now I wonder- if it's good to chameleon? Maybe instead of adapting to the conditions I should adapt the conditions to myself?