Identity

 I came to a "simple" conclusion: I need to focus on who I am, not on who I'll never be.

 But simple conclusions are never as simple as they seem to be :) and usually they are coming after a lot of complications. Well... Another conclusion just came to me- it's not always keeping things simple that avoids complications. Sometimes we need things to get complicated, so we can understand how simple they are. 

 Those conclusions got me confused... Well then... Good night Everyone ;)

One step before

 Sometimes I have a feeling like everybody is one step before me. Usually I mean the artistic context, but not only. Don't you ever get a feeling that everyone else has moved on with their lives and you seem to stuck in a moment and you can't get out of it?  

 Luckily, as the years go by, I'm gaining some experience and self-knowledge. And I gathered enough of it till now to know that this kind of feeling is an illusion and it's very relative. The truth is...it's all about you and what you do with your life. And comparing yourself with the others is just postponing the actions to be taken to make your life the coolest life possible.

What a mess!

 A little bit about a mess today. Why? Because I'm facing post-moved-in difficulties like tons of dust, old weird stuff left by previous tenants, spider webs (omg, probably spiders too, but I'm pushing this fact far and deep into my subconscious), etc, etc. A lot of new smells and sounds- I didn't expect from myself to be so sensitive with that but it looks like we get used to familiar sounds and smells and with time they make us feel safe. 

 But the mess lesson is that: the mess won't get less unless you'll start to clean it up. Little by little, step by step, litter by litter. And I mean here a mess outside and inside yourself. Material and emotional. Unless you take conscious action- the mess won't get smaller. And you know what's the best in this cleaning up? That mess covers some beautiful things and you will reveal them :)

 Ok Ladies & Gentlemen! I'm grabbing cloth in my hand now! Time to clean up some mess here! :)