Guided by the lack

I'm sure you don't have everything in your life right now. Just the same as me and everyone else. What are you missing? What do you need? Sun, friends, new dress (always!!! ;)), more money, adventures, ideas, sport, ...? Take a piece of paper, pen, a while and write down what you don't have and you'd like to have.

All done? Then give me few more minutes to think about it.

Now... How much of time you need? How many new friends and what you want to do together? What kind of adventures you'd like to have? Define quantity, quality, when, where and how. Half of the work is done! Now nothing else matters but filling the gaps in your life. Focus on one, then go to another. Take them one by one. Now I'll use two horrible, very old fashioned words: consequence & discipline.  I know, they sound like a nightmare from childhood, but they're actually very helpful i making dreams come true! You'll see that just taking care of your lacks makes you more happy. At least it happens to me ;)

I thought that you should focus only on positive things in your life but that's not truth. When you notice the bad things, they're the guideposts to better, to solutions, to good change. Let's start from now! :)

Smile! And keep smiling

Why do we smile? What is the purpose of face muscles that shape the smile on our faces? Why except the anger and fear our faces shows also joy? It's not to defend us from wild animals. It's not making us wiser in any way. But it makes life so much pleasant, isn't it? :)

How strong a smile must be if it can force You to smile back? I like to feel how my mouth corners are rising slowly...just one more second and....yes...yes! I'm smiling! Even if the day was hard or I feel bad with myself-someone or something makes me smile again.

The greatest smiles are those unexpected, those given for free, smiles from strangers in the street, from kids. Once I found really nice definition of love: "Love is a warm smile that becomes a habit".

If you think about it... We're very rich without any money. We can smile, hug, think, laugh, dance and sing. We can build with our words and thoughts, we can change with our touch and we can express with our voice and moves- every one in its own unique way. It's good to be a human!

No picture post

I got lost in the hi-tech jungle or maybe computers have some cheeky plan to drive me crazy- I can't load any pictures on my blog! :( I was trying and trying and didn't succeed but then the very simple thought came to my mind: "Darling, you can just write!". Bingo! Sometimes I'm so blind and deaf to the simplest solutions. So in a meanwhile when universe is working on posting pictures problem, I'll become a part time writer ;) 

Sketches- it's hard for me to distinguish the difference between drawing and a sketch. When sketch becomes a drawing? Is drawing different from sketch because of the amount of time and work putted in it? I prefer to call my pieces of art sketches. I like to make them quick, not to lose the energy of the line and courage of hand. It's like 20 seconds of courage ("We bought a ZOO") when brain doesn't notice what's going on and it lets all the thoughts and feelings spill on a paper. Paper. I don't feel comfortable with using thick paper from artist's shops. I prefere my home made sketch books made from paper printed on the one side. It gives  me weird inner comfort of not wasting it when the sketch will be unsuccessful.

Notes- those who know me well enough to see what I carry everywhere with me also know that I'm sort of addicted of  writing things down. When I'm at work I use millions of chits, then usually throw them away but it's a habit. A habit of making notes. If there would be a fire, the first thing I'd take with me and runaway would be my agenda. So many thoughts, ideas, inspirations, old tickets (memories!) in it! It's like my second right hand. Notes are like sketches- quick, being just the prelude to bigger idea, bigger vision, fresh and honest. They're like a bud before the flower. And as much as I'm amazed with the beauty of flowers, I enjoy even more the mystery of buds.

Inspirations- what actually inspiration is? Nothing that you can see or count. It's like tickling inside. When I see inspiring picture, piece of art, movie, person, whatever- I get a feeling like they describe falling in love- butterflies in my stomach. Or maybe...dragonflies in my chest :) Yes! Comparison to butterflies or dragonflies is indeed a very good one! (I know, I know, I'm just so smart! ;D ) That little excitement every time you see  them, the admiration for the beauty of nature and understanding the wonder of life. And always the question: to catch it? Or better live it alone, free and transitory?

Gratitude

There's a time in life to understand everything. Funny how sometimes I'm ignoring the simplest things, convinced of my infallability. The truth is that sometimes I'm really silly- especialy in the moments when I'm thinking how smart and perfect I am. The thing that is on my mind lately is gratitude. I am waiting for the signs of it from people around me but not giving the same back. Taking many things for granted when in the reality they're the good will and effort of people that are important for me. Lent is almost over but maybe it's a good resolution for everyday of my life: to be grateful? 

P.S. Gratitude has a side effects- brings you closer to the people and makes you more happy.