Dark forest

There're moments in life when you feel like a child lost in dark forest. You have to look around, there must be someone, silent angel who will help you to find the way back or new way. "When God closes door, He opens window."

Certain direction

You can't follow more than one path at the same time. You can change them during your lifetime to find the right one. I found accurate comparison to finding your life goal: it's when you feel like all screws are in the righ places. So far I feel like the looking for that path is neverending. But  there's a light in the dark tunnel, there's a childhood dream and there's a question: "Why not? Why not try to follow that?".  

 I spent a while today to realize what I want my life to look like. Well... I want to create, travel and eat good food :) The recipe for happy life is too simple to be true: do what you like and do it often!

Autumn

 Carousel of time is unstoppable, summer turned into autumn, and winter is just behind the corner, waiting for its turn. Bright and neon colours turn into subdued and deep browns, beiges, oranges, greens, etc. Nature changes scenery, we change our wardrobes. 

  One of my latest small pleasures is buying fresh vegetables in stalls. No comparison to poor leftovers in supermarkets! 

  And another observation: just like vegetables, style in drawing needs time and proper conditions to ripen. I'm especially impressed with two artist lately: Eveline Tarunadjaja www.lovexevol.com/  and Cecilia Lundgren www.cecilialundgren.com/ . They already have recognizable style, line. I still see too much variety in my works and I can't find the essence of my style yet. Still tons of paper, liters of ink and boxes of pencils in front of me ;)

Mood board: Yellow

We used to make mood boards with my sisters before I knew this is how you call them. We could spend all afternoons watching old magazines and cutting out photos we like, then sticking them into different combinations in notebooks, on paper. Paper... When I think about it, paper was my favourite toy :)) You can do so many things with it, so many kinds of it- endless possibilities. My favourite doll was a paper one with a box full of paper apparels designed by me. And origami? Art of folding a paper, important inspiration in fashion, design or architecture but initially a way of making toys. Paper, pencil and bicycle- my favourite inventions of mankind.

P.S. Why yellow? As a sun supplement.

Outer space

 

                                                                     Projects to the task "New-Old"

Music can take to a different space, somewhere between consciousness and subconsciousness, between reality and unreality. Music is born in human soul. Sometimes I like to imagine it as a warm, colourful, giving delicate light balls, circulating somewhere in our blood system. The feeling of good sounds surrounding you can be so relaxing and releasing the mind! We have good saying here, which can be translated like this: "Go where you here singing, people there have souls. Remember, bad people never sing." So sing people, sing! :)

3 in 1

 If you'll decide to make your biggest life dream come true, you have to be 3 in 1:

1. Child- believe that everything is possible
2. Idealist- have a perfect vision of your ideal life after making the dream come true
3. Monk- be focused, work hard and believe that Force Majeure is taking care of you and your mission

Power of a movie

 I'm sure everyone knows days like this- you'd like to do so many things and you feel you can't do anything. Nothing seems interesting or easy enough to be done, even if it'll make you feel better. And it's not laziness (I hope so! ;)), it's just 'that day'. The day that it's better to do nothing than something. Hmm... Do days like that have sense? I'm sure they do, but I didn't figure it out yet.

At least I had an opportunity to watch a movie- small pleasure that I almost forget. I chose "Julie & Julia" (I don't remember how many times I watched it already...) and, to be honest, that was the perfect choice ;) Not only becouse of positive vibes and message, but also becouse of brilliant costumes and sceneries. I'm in love with small hats worn by ellegant women from '40 and '50. And I'm hungry now!

Not enough

Creativity comes out of lack, not of abundance. Lack of something pushes you to search, to look for new ways to fix the situation, to fill the empty space. It was very common in "good old times", when shops very very few or very far. Nothing in the households could be wasted. Damaged clothes and things were repaired with accuracy. Nowadays we have real flood of everything, I especially see it when it comes to clothes- thousands of boutiques, shops, second hands, etc. 

I rememebered the movie "Waste Land" with Vik Muniz, the artist, and one sentence he said: "I'd prefer to have nothing and want everything, than to have everything and want nothing".

Stubborn dream

 There's one stubborn dream that I can't get out of my heart. I guess all I can do is make it come true... ;) 

 I wonder where dreams are born...? Were we born with some grains of dreams already in our souls, or we discover them during life? Are dreams something natural for human beings as breathing or they are just another trendy term, like stress?

Season for sweaters

 

 Goodbye ethereal dresses, time for thick and warm sweaters. Sweaters, jackets, umbrellas, hats. I was watching falling leaves yesterday and thought that people are the most stubborn beings on this planet. When it's getting colder and whole nature is slowing down, trees are losing leaves, bears are falling into winter sleep, birds are flying to the warmer countries- people take out their bikes and trekking shoes, then theirs ice-skates and skis, sledges and hockey sticks. We're trying to be outside the nature's law :)

Everything new

 Everything is new since Sunday: air that I'm breathing, people that I pass in the streets, view from my window.  Many things are different since Sunday: the city that I live in, plan of my day, perspectives. Thoughts passing in my head like clouds on a windy sky stayed the same. The change of place is so much easier than changing the way you are. Deep inside each one of us is stubborn, attached to old habits and ways of thinking. 

Travelling is kind of shock therapy- it's like pushing nestling out of the nest. Behind the fear you'll find new strenght and skills that you didn't expect you have. You think you're rabbit-hearted girl, but there's a lion in you, all you have to do is wake him up!